Everyone uses it wrong. Suicide. I'm included. They say it's a sin you know, and it's selfish. It's the ultimate escapism. It's a permanent solution to a temporary problem. I'm guilty of thinking about it. Often sometimes. Luckily I'm too much of a wimp to go through with it, I'm afraid of the answers on the other side.
First of all I had a dream, my prefect world, I had a pet penguin. (A rock-hopper, those things are metal-as-fuck.) Living in the tropic, had a job where I just brain stormed everything with people who wrote for me. I was just an idealist. It was written by broke philanthropists, my dream said those exact words. Well I did in my dream when they ask who wrote it.
I was just being helpful me, loving everyone who loved me, and faking love to those I don't really care about. I'm really guilty, but it works. Call me a liar, oh well.
When suddenly the end of the world was here. Damn you 2012, ruining my dreams. (Which is another hoax, I hope it's just a time of change, it is for me personally.) I did everything right, did exactly what I had to do, which at this time was leading some small fluff dog to the beach to be rescued. But instead.
It lead me to my old room in the dream. Instead I fell into the bathroom pinned to the wall with a door on me. Trapped. I woke up.
My dream ended there and I woke and thought about that word, not for me, just the word in general.
No one wants to feel trapped when they think the world is ending. If things would have gotten bad enough, and I didn't wanna suffer... I did everything right and world still sucked. I think Jesus did sin.
And I think it killed him. What if he was just Bi-polar? And while delusional he thought he was doing miracles. While he was manic he was Jesus, while depressed he was Judas.
Or maybe it just a bunch of dorks sitting around writing the first superhero story.
Just a thought, Just a dream right. Well my dream will never end, I write everyday, it's just what I do.
I was given a creative mind for a reason. Bout time I started using it. Sorry if you disagree.
